Stumbled across your picture today...

I found an old word document which I thought I read entirely before but turns out there is more if you scroll down which I didn't catch months and months ago when I had last read it. I decided to read it and boy was that hard to do. Tears were poking at my eyes the whole time. I was able to recall every emotion and feeling you had described. Kendell read it too she aww'd and laughed multiple times. What you had wrote to me was so sweet so true so genuine. I also saw you tonight when I stopped at your sisters. It's been a high strung emotional day and night all thanks to you and you have now managed to add to it. You drove past my house. It was you. Your truck. I know the sound of that truck like I know the words to my favorite song. I know the lights and the brush guard because you taught me so well. I know the bump from your system. I know. You drove past and drove in the back neighborhood. But why? Why on earth would you do this? Are you okay? Do you miss me? Was I on your mind? Why the hell would you do this? I don't get you. I never will.

I'll be seeing you,
Manda

So much to say

Out of time
All out of fight
You are the only thing in life that I got right

You'd already be gone if it were up to me

But my hearts got a memory..

the journey

I am on this trip to get over you and I keep making wrong turns and getting lost. I think I'm making the right choice and then something makes me change my mind. I have a break down only about once a month now so that in itself is progress although it doesn't seem like it should be. I've gotta look at the little steps to keep me going and knowing I'm making progress. I'll be on this journey until I find the right path and destination. I'll get there though I promise you that.

I'll be seeing you,
Manda