Holdin' On

There's a Mountain Dew can
With lipstick on it
Rollin' around his truck bed
He just leaves it back there
One of the things he has left of
Her

When he drives into the late
Day sun
You can see a set of footprints
He ain't gonna clean that
Windshield
He'd rather just live with the hurt

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He's holdin' on to the wheel
On to the way she made him feel
On to the shifter, on to
The pictures
Every precious moment with her
Like the left beheind colors in the
Sky
When the sun is gone
He's holdin' on

Oh, he's holdin' on

There's a voicemail on his cell
Phone
He don't dare erase
She endeed with I love you
And he saves it just in case it
Might still be true
No, he ain't through

[Chorus]
He's holdin' on to the wheel
On to the way she made him feel
On to the shifter, on to
The pictures
Every precious moment with her
Like the left beheind colors in the
Sky
When the sun is gone
He's holdin' on

To the past
To the last time he held her
Her breath on his neck
The three words she said
Oh --

He's holdin' on to the wheel
On to the way she made him feel
On to the shifter
On to the pictures
Every precious moment with her
He's holdin' on
Yeah, he's holdin' on and on
He's holdin' on, he's holdin' on

Would he care if I died? Would he notice I'm gone? Would he miss me even a little then?

I don't think so...

I'll be seeing you,
Manda

How?

I woke up thinking I was holding you. The thought of it makes my stomach turn. My dream was so real. We were happy we were together. We fell asleep holding each other and that's when I woke up thinking I was waking up holding you. I can still feel the embrace. Turns out I was holding my comforters and it gave me the illusion that I was once again waking up to you. That was probably the worst one yet. I've woke up crying about you and I've woke up trying to figure out if my dream was real or not but never has it been so real as to where I feel you in my arms. I hate you for leaving me and becoming everything you promised you'd never be but most of all I hate you for making me really fall in love with you. I hate this feeling of lonely you have left me with.

I'll be seeing you,
Manda

like a ghost

You're there. Every song, every road, every turn, every shirt, every picture, every show, every room in my house, ever memory of love & happiness. Like a ghost you haunt my life. You are still living in it even though we haven't talked in months. You still surround me and it makes me hate you so much. I hate that I can look back at pictures and remember exactly how my heart raced...and still does the moment I look at the picture of us. I can remember everything. I want it to stop. I want you gone. How do you get rid of a ghost? How do you banish them from your life? How can I cure this haunting?



I'll be seeing you,
Manda