isn't it funny how some things take you back?

Like a certain smell, song, movie, word, sound, picture, a show or something as simple as a location. For me any of these things can be triggers and instantly I'm back in a moment in time. Some memories haunting, some sad and some are wonderful to revisit. I love how the mind works in that sense. I love knowing something can trigger a feeling, mood or thought and bring it to the surface. Sometimes it's not something you want to revisit but that's just the way the world works. Lately this has been happening to me more than ever. I swear there are so many things that bring up old memories. Some days I want to block them out completely because I no longer want to remember that that was the life I once lived but sometimes it's good to know who I was and where I'm at now.

Where I'm at now is not where I thought I'd be at all a year ago. I planned on being in a four year college with my major decided, living with a roommate or two and looking for a place to live in the upcoming year with the now ex and starting to map things out for my/our future. Well, life changes and we have to learn to roll with the punches. Some days are harder than others though when trying to realize that shit happens and we have to keep going. Yes, I do wish I could go back a year ago and change so much. But I'm not in the position to do so. Therefore I must push forward and start creating my new future, my new path and something better for myself then what I originally planned.

Have you ever made a decision so big that you knew it would change which path you were headed towards? I wish I had thought that over more when making a couple rather large decisions in my life. Oh the things I'd teach myself a year ago that I know now.

Love if enough, friends and family are everything, money is important but only for the essentials, education is a must, you are stronger than you let yourself believe and again love is always enough.

No matter where you choose to be in my heart I'll always see you, everywhere. Now a days when I'm passin' through the conversation always turns to you, I hear you're doin' fine. Livin' out by the county line got a man that's home every night, a couple of kids and the kind of life that you want to leave. Guess you could say the same for me. But you and I made our choices all those years ago, still I know I'll hear your voice and see you down the road...

I'll be seeing you,
Manda